i really don't know

what i want anymore/
maybe i'm just too tempremental for my own goodness GRACIOUS

i miss normality and having something/anything solid in my life
i miss
i miss
i miss


you know who i miss, and there's more than one
maybe that's karma - that's why.
i'm a bad-minded person
i neeeeed it
to distract myself
i'm sick to death of trying
trying to make it work
whatever IT is
i hate it
i despise it
i want to be enlightened
inspired
i want i want i want
because i'm SELFISH
am i? maybe i am
maybe that's not the worst thing in the world
for once.

i want help from higher hands
i want to be younger again
erase responsibility
fuck this
this is not what i signed up for

I NEED MY LIFE BACK
sick of
sick of tryin to stand on my own two feet
sick of
sick of making a mess while i do
sick of
sick of hurting and hurting others
sick of
sick of coping
lorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrd i am selfish
so be it

what more can you take away
i challenge you to make it more difficult
C R U S H M E
i might not even feel it.

I DARE YOU